By: donna

donna — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 23:34:55 +0000

Thanks for sharing Ron. I am a “newbie” to the program and I thank God for reaching down for me “one more time.” I knew I was at rock bottom when I went through some of the extremes you mentioned in your journal. I can only imagine what went through your mind when you realized it was a piece of cheese you were smoking. Thats rock bottom for sure…Been there, done that, sold the t-shirt! I watched in horror, of the unknown, crack literally stealing my two best friends from me one by one as if they were pawn’s in a monolopy game. Not only did I grieve for my loss but I grieved for a tremendous amount of time since they were taken from me at the same time. It was my fear that kept me from exploring those uncharted waters and I am so very thankful that God put that fear in my heart. I have made so so many empty promises to my God for deliverance that I am shocked that he heard me knocking. I am still in the company of placing blame because that is all that I knew in my years of abuse. I have completed only 3 meetings, but those three meetings saved my life in a very literal sense. I enjoy gettting up each day now and look forward to what the good Lord has set out for me to accomplish just for today. It amazes me the love, patience, and understanding that He has not just for me, but for all his children. I now understand why he has not taken me out by now. And I thought (when I could) I was just invincible. The devil is a charming liar and I finally have him in his place, under my feet. It got to where the pain was so much worse than the addiction, but now that I am free of that pain I can deal with the rest of it ONLY with His help and guidance and my meetings. I know that nothing is by accident or chance. If I can touch just one life, it will be the life of one of His children and I am certain now that is what he had planned for me all along. He knows my heart as well as my intentions and I know that with his help that will be the best decision I ever made without being told that was what I was going to do. While I am not in denial (I pray) that when the “new” wears off, those daily meetings will be more and more welcomed and not just another mundane routine and only a matter of going to get a paper signed.I was brought here unregistered, I reckon. I am very proud of my white key ring and I will share it with honor for the rest of my time here. Thank you for the fellowship. I’m thirsty for all I can get at this point. I am starved for the fellowship and oh what a high that is! Best high I have ever been on. While I may not be the best in choosing words, I hope that I made some sense in striving to convey my feelings. Have a blessed day and thank you so much! only through his promise, I am Donna Morris

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By: donna