I’m trying.  My name is Marjorie and I’m three days sober.  I know this isn’t a long time and I’m still scared and anxious and confused and weighed down by my demons but I’m trying.  This isn’t my first attempt at sobriety either. I’ve tried to stay clean already three times but it’s hard.

I guess life is hard too and I know I’m not the only one to have tried and failed before.  But I’m hoping this time I can stick with it.  Writing about it helps me get through those moments where you feel the dark fingers of addiction closing around your throat to the point that you feel like you can’t breathe. 

I’ve moved back in with my parents because I had to break ties with my old “friends” for lack of a better word.  I know my life and my recovery have to be about me right now but I’m not used to thinking about myself or putting myself first. 

I know there are a lot of success stories about recovery on the internet and I hope mine becomes a story of success too.  I know some people would consider three days with no drugs a success but I’m hoping for that long-term success where I can write about having a loving husband, a little house and a family. 

I think I would even like a dog or a cat too.  It’s hard, it hurts but I want to succeed.  Thanks for listening.  I know I’m not there yet but I’m getting there.